9 sleeps to go

Posted on: February 20, 2011

9 sleeps to go

Had a fabulous time meeting fellow endo sisters today, was overwhelming!

Kaye designed my photoshoot to be about the weight of endo,  with roses being loaded in to my arms to signify the weight I have been bearing, I actually cried throughout the whole 15 minute shoot,  it felt so symbolic.  Kaye talked to me about imagining the roses in my arms as the endo,  I could really feel how much emotion I have been carrying the last couple of weeks.  At the end of the shoot I was invited to throw the roses,  as if I was getting rid of what I have been carrying.  As I thought about throwing them in the air, in my mind I was filled with happiness,  looking at my darling hubby and thinking of our new life that is just around the corner.  After the shoot I did sob for a while,  but I was crying carefully as I have never had false eyelashes before and I wanted them to last for as long as possible!

I met some awesome ladies,  and it has actually helped me hugely.  I have turned a corner today I know it.

It never ceases to amaze me how much endo has affected my life.  Its not all negative ,  i met some wonderful ladies who are so inspirational.  I have been having second thoughts about going through with the surgery but today has made me feel that I am on the right path.  I am doing what I have to do,  there really is no option left for me. The choice to have a hysterectomy is a choice from a limited list of bad options! No matter how wobbly I may feel I believe in my heart of hearts that I need to have this done – I trust the team of medical specialists and this is the best chance I have of having a happy healthy future.  I cannot continue to think about what we may have had. The future is waiting for us!

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